Sunday, October 11, 2009

my silent plea

More holiness give me,
More strivings within,
More patience in suffering,
More sorrow from sin,
More faith in my Savior,
More sense of his care,
More joy in his service,
More purpose in prayer.

More gratitude give me,
More trust in the Lord,
More pride in his glory,
More hope in his word,
More tears in his sorrow,
More pain at his grief,
More meekness in trial,
More praise for relief.

More purity give me,
More strength to o'ercome,
More freedom from earthstains,
More longing for home,
More fit for the kingdom,
More used would I be,
More blessed and holy
More, Savior, like thee.

-Hymn #131, More Holiness Give Me

Saturday, October 3, 2009

with love

“Are you always in a good mood?”

“Do you think it spreads? Do you think it makes others around you happier?”

“I think it does.”

Those were the question posed to me yesterday at work. It struck me and caught me off guard. It caused me to turn inward to try and determine an appropriate answer.

Really, I just want to be there. I want to be someone that others can trust. I want to be the person that anyone can talk to and feel safe sharing deep emotion, or frivolous emotion – whatever is needed in the moment. I want to spread the Gospel of Jesus Christ by example. I want others to be comfortable and happy around me.

I try to find the good in everyone that I come in contact with. The amazing housekeeper that strives to keep our lab spotless. The cute little old lady driving her car 25 in a 45mph zone. The adorable old couple walking hand in hand around temple square. The kind gentleman who I stick with a needle to draw his blood twice a week. My amazing and inspiring boss. My best friend who knows me better than I probably know myself. The phlebotomist that I am learning to love far more that I would have ever thought possible upon first meeting her. My roommates who were kind enough to ask me to live with them. My family that puts up with all my crap. My Heavenly Father who looks after my each and every move and is always there even when I stumble. The list goes on. I don’t think I could ever write a comprehensive one.

I am surrounded by amazing people that have done incredible things in their lives and continue to do so. So many of them have come in contact with such tragedy but get through it with flying colors. They all offer inspiration to me. I am a better person because I know them. They help to lift and inspire me to do good each and every day.

My deepest desire is that I can in some way return the favor.